these past few days have been so strange. almost like deja-vu. thursday my exboyfriend mike started talking to me again. says that he misses me and messed up or relationship last time. and that he thinks we should try to date again. ive never done this before, gotten back with an ex, but for some reason it just feels right. like a second chance was needed. we hung out today for the first time in a year. an exact year, which is what blows my mind. today was the uconn car show, and this show last year was our very first date. and first time hanging out. so we thought of it as a do-over first date. i think it went pretty well. he brought me back around his group of friends i knew from the first time we dated. it was like going back in time. i was hanging out with everyone almost like that year gap never happened. then in his friends car, he pulled me over to his side of the seat to lean on him so he could hold me. and when he was bringing me home, we held hands and joked around like old times. it made me so happy. he makes me happy. im glad we are starting over. i think things could work this time for us, as long as he stays away from the steriods this time. but i think i have nothing to worry about. just thinking about everything, this whole situation, makes me smile. like when he kissed me for the first time today on our way home. instant butterflies. okayy, now on to what happened today. one of my closest friends that i no longer speak to texted me and appologized for us not talking anymore. like dafuq?! why is everyone trying to make amends with me all of a sudden? i mean, im not complaining, im just confused. and then my other ex josh just drunk texted me and said we had the best sex hes ever had. uhhh.. how do i even respond to that… just cant seem to wrap my mind around all this stuff. but then again, im glad im getting positive attention, and people want me to be in their lives again. :) //end rant.